I've always said this to you, if you don't want people to suspect, don't let them have the chance to. One time after another, I smelled all those cigarette smell on you, each time you never fail to cook up an excuse. Which time am I suppose to believe. If you don't want to strain our r/s 'cos of this, simply DON'T join them when they are smoking. Why is it that sometimes you don't have to follow them and sometimes you HAVE to follow them? You like to do all this so much? So be it, I'd wash my hands off you. Whatever you want to do, go ahead. You like your friends and everything so much right? Go ahead. Your FRIENDS can solve all problems for you, share your woes. How about dating all your friends? Not a bad choice right?

Let me emphasize again, if there's a next time for a situation like today. Don't ask me along. I felt awkward and uneasy. Okay?

Forget it...I'm too tired to deal with all these okay. If you think its 'cos you're too stressed or whatever you want to say, okay, so be it. Let it be your reason to lead life the way you one.
I'm speechless, totally.

I GIVE UP, SUIT YOURSELF.

i love u..

i dunno wad u thinking now but all i wan to do is tell u i love u..i really dunno wad happen to hammy and the smoke smell is really not me..if u wan to think it is me so be it..i cannot do anything to change it..
i love u..

No worries.

I know. But no matter how fucked up you get, you still won't improve the situation. Okay, I'd try to save up or something. I'm mostly coaching pri school kids. So I don't think it suits you? I'd be starting to go out with my friends more oftenly so that you won't have to fret about where to bring me. Is that okay?

Hope we get over this soon.

Loves,
xoxo,
Sweetie.

BaBy!I love you,but I think i'm falling apart

the money issue has come back to huant me time and again. i dunno if i can survive this kind of pressure for such a long period of time without u by my side.i love u i really do.i would be working on dec 1st as a event coordinator again at a hotel from 6 to 11.after which i will continue my look out for temp jobs and of cuz find a fixed part-time job puls tutoring chen rui.hopfully i can find more kids so i can stop going ard doing temp jobs.to be honest my body hurts nw as ytd was a really tiring nite.my sch work is falling apart and i cant spend enough time with u plus i dun have money with me.can things get worse?i hope not.the only way out for me nw is going up.i hope u understand and try to tolerate me abit more than u usually do when i get angry or fucked up.my temper is bad enough with this thing around its just getting worst.if there is kids that u dun hav time to tutor maybe i can do it for u if the parents are okay with it.after all this we start a investing acc then the both of us put in th same amt of $ like 50 per month then next time we dun hav to worry about
I LOVE YOU HONEY
WYC&JE

Here's a big fat kiss for you!!!! <3

Weeeeee... I'm so tired now...But I promised to complete this before I hit my sack. ^^
Let's have soup spoon tomorrow okay? To celebrate my getting a new job. Don't reject me ah...hehehe. :D
You're like so busy nowadays.

Let me tell you about my ultra violent dream!

It started in school. That bitch was sticking so close to you and when I wanted to talk to you, she asked me to back off! I was like wtf?! So...I pulled her ugly hair, gave her i dont know how many slaps I gave her. Then I saw her mouth and nose bleeding. WOOHOOO...ULTI-SHIOKNESS BABY!!!!

She still retaliate you know?! Stupid bitch, so kiam pak. I was damn angry and she insisted on sticking to you. I dragged her to the toilet, stuff her head into the toilet and said "@#$%^&*( _l_ BITCH, WAKE UP FROM YOUR SENSES, HE IS MY BOYFRIEND "... She was still laughing you know? Super ulti mega kiam pak. Her kiam-pak-ness is imba lor. Walao eh. HAHAHA. Then I dont know why we ended up at a beach... I dragged her by her hair, again and forced sand into her mouth. I was happily stuffing sand into her fucking mouth, power max man! In the end, I can't tolerate her anymore, I just took her head and bang it on the pillar and I was kicking her stomach wearing my heels. Thats about it? I don't remember the other details. But I do remember you peeping at my bathe!!! -_- Lol I know.

HAHAHA. So stupid the dream, but I like!!! ^^

Love you baby.
See ya tomorrow.
xoxo,
sweetie.

yes i will:)

no problem honey..i didnt really spend on anything except for transport..so it was okay..had luch for free and dinner at home..i wanted to talk to someone about our problem..just nice that sc call to talk so u know..i did sms u but u prob didnt receive it..i hope that both of us can find a balance between frene and us and work..its kinda of hard but its something that will help:)
i love u baby no doubt..

COOK FOR ME.

If you want to save money...Stop going out that often. I mean like, if you go out, you'd bound to spend money right? So rather than spending unnecessary money, why not stay home? Teeeheeeheee. Just a suggestion anyways...

Plus, I'd get real mad if you did what you did yesterday. >:/ I hate you not telling me when you're going out. Like wtf? You didn't even bother to call or whatever then you went out. Sigh. Plus I was sick and you don't even know it? :/ Sigh... DOUBLE SIGH! >"<

Aiya, whatever. Better make 煎饺 for me to forgive you!!! >"<

Goodbye,
xoxo
Sweetie.

start of something new for us

Although you might find this abit dumb but i feel that its a good way for us to communicate.we have more time to choose our words so we dun hurt each other.i really hope this blog will be useful for us. just say anything u wan to me in this blog..happy or sad..i just wan to say sorry because of my family problems u have to get into all sorts of problem together..
i love u i really do:)thank you:)

WYC love JE

I've got it done.

Here, if you need anything to be edited...tell me.

xoxo,
Sweetie.